You Only See Half

You only see half

Of who I am

Because I’m too scared

To tell you what I think

Would parents really abandon their child

Because of how they view the world

Because of who they like

Because of who they are

So can I tell you

Would you care

If I told you about the girl

Who pinches her wrists red

Cry’s herself to sleep

Stuffs down panic attacks

Until she can’t breath

And how she sits up in her bed

Once the lights go out

Because her stomach is in pain

But she doesn’t want to wake you

So she confides in her friends

But she can’t even do that

Because she can’t find the words

They’re stuck in her throat

Because she doesn’t want to burden them

With her pain and anxiety

So she forces a smile

And puts on a show

For her friends and family

Who will never know she’s alone

And dead inside

Waiting for the day she starts to feel alive

The day will never come

But I’ll continue to talk myself out of ever seeking help

Because I’m always gonna be broken

And hiding one side of me

Honestly I don’t know why I’m telling you all this

No one’s even gonna read it

I’m just talking to myself

All broken and blue

knowing that

There’s no way my parents would still love me

If they knew both sides of this broken tragedy